As a Mormon

we, the collective we are encouraged

to keep a record of our lives,

a journal of us.

But I've found when I do that it's so angsty and narcissistic.

Cringingly so.

Oh and whiney too.

And it doesn't seem to matter what I wrote

it's very "the world according to Sarajane,

good, religious Mormon woman."

Like the TV programme with Glenn Close

Sarah: Plain and Tall*.

I'm not particularly either of those,

may have something to do with having no 'h' on Sara

cause I do know a Sarah: Plain and Tall.

Good woman she is too.

Anyway journal keeping just isn't my cup of herbal tea

and I've been beating myself up a little about it.

Man, it's important to leave a record for my posterity

except that I don't have any nor am likely too.

Closest I might get is Pippapotamus having a coco baby.

But shut the front door!

I do have a journal.

I have a journal that is much more my comfort zone.

It's here, you are reading my journal right now.

Somehow you reading my words

makes it so much safer and makes me write better**,

well about normal subjects anyway.

Is farmy stuff normal?

That sheep organ post was interesting I think.

I do censor the topics I write about.
For instance there are a few people I would have liked to blog about.

People like workmates or Young Farmers or

romantic interests and interludes

(keep in mind I'm Mormon so they are tame,

the interludes not the romantic interests).

I have thought about starting an anonymous blog

but suspect it would become like my journal.

I'm a pretty positive person so there aren't too many people

I don't like and I think if I really did not like someone

I would go to town on them here if I felt like it

even if it mucked up my feel good vibe

(there is a feel good vibe here, right?)

It would be funny as.

* Actually it's not like that at all  - I've never even watched that programme or movie so what do I know?  Oh I do know that if you google Rural Business Network my blog comes up.  Probably cause I did the website splash page and got it started.

** better does not necessarily mean spelling or grammar.